Saying that these past few weeks have been stressful is an understatement.
I'm sad to report that I've turned to shitty things to cope. I've traded in my workouts for naps and netflix and junk food binge sessions. I'm not proud of this, but I'm not going to hide it. It's part of being human and proves that making a lifestyle change is easier said than done.
There are a lot of bumps along the road - for me they can be found in all aspects of my life (personal, health and work). I'm glad to have so many opportunities at work, however my health (mental and physical) seem to be getting in the way. Mentally, I'm dealing with the daily struggle of anxiety, and physically I have things that I've been dealing with my whole life.
Emotionally, I'm a hot mess. I used to refer to myself as Elsa from Disney's Frozen because I didn't have any feelings. This past weekend, I felt all of the feelings all at the same time! It was terrifying and just created more stress.
To cope with all of this, I've been turning to Peppermint Java Chip Frappuccinos from Starbucks and one or two boxes of Girl Guide cookies (damn kiddos). I know I should have made some tea, taken some time to breathe, etc... But I didn't.
I've fallen off the wagon and know that I need to get back on. I also know that I will continue to fall off because that's the way life works. It's a bitch, though we get to choose how we deal with it.